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i keep having the strangest dreams. i rarely dream, which makes these even stranger. however i have noticed i dream more when im not really sleeping. when im in that half awake point after the alarm has gone off and i just dont feel like getting up yet. this is when i dream.

had one this morning. i had a hawk. actually an osprey. why, i dont know. but i kept losing him, nad having to search for him again. so i dont think i actually -had- the osprey, it just sorta kept following me around. which entertained me, so i kept looking for him again when hed dissappear. i had some kind of wierd half glove thing on, which worked well enough for him to perch on too. i remember leaving kmart or something, and after getting past security to leave (?!?) i remembered the osprey was still inside. so i had to go back and get him. i never named him, he was just "the bird".

one a couple of days ago, i dont remmeber most of it. but i happened to be looking at someone eyes. this was at the very end of the dream. my vision began to shrink down to just the one eye. it was all i could see, one giant eye. the eye then began to mprph, like it would rotate and there would be a different eye. each eye was only slightly differnt then the last, but they became increasingly unhuman. at the last shift it wasnt even an eye, it was merely waveform, like sound waves, it changed with what whoever's eye it was. the only thing i remember it saying though, was once it got to the waveform. "testing, testing, can you hear me? hehehe" in this horrible evil gremlin voice thing. the "hehehe" part is where i woke up. too fuckin weird.


so my taste in music is notoriously eclectic. my interest goes all over the place, and to very strange things. even more so with the advent of downloadable music. im curious what are the last few bands people have been listening to (or last few you discovered)

ive been listening to:
The Kills (great minimalist dark smoky music)
PJ Harvey (more dark sultry vocals)
Carina Round (passionate dark vocals, i have such a thing for dark chick vocals)
Nick Cave (if you dont know him, there isnt much i can say)
The Dresden Dolls (quirky cabaret-like music. definetely different)
Collide (goth music with chick vocals)
Horrorpops (rockabilly-ish stuff)
Mr Bungle (Mike Patton's band that he has stuck with from the very beginning)

girl anachronism


you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips

and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the
carefullest of girls


you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're
breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking

but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i
could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think
that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to

be
it's just the way the operation made me


and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out
too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and
ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be
you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to
convince you
it was accidentally on purpose


i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join
your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the
labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl
anachronism


and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my
thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that
i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall

don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say
just
let
her
crash
and
burn
she'll learn
the
attention just encourages her


and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that i'm sorry that i
asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person
would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing
youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages
will all come off


and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current
state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time
it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the
day, its just the way the medication makes her...


i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join
your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a
caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL
ANACHRONISM

Current Music:
The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism
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On October 15th, 2005 10:57 pm (UTC), anch_kethrii commented:
Fascinating dream.

I actually adore ospreys. I don't know if you've ever gotten to watch them in the wild but it's something I could do all day. There's something about the way they plunge down at the ocean so fast you think it should kill them, and then come up with a fish you didn't even know was there, that's just so fascinating to me.

Ospreys are unique birds - not eagles, hawks, falcons, or anything else. They have great long-term memories, and they mate for life - returning to the same nest and rebuilding it again and again every year.

Anyway thanks for sharing your dreams. Interesting stuff :)
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On October 16th, 2005 08:27 am (UTC), revtrae replied:
i actually made a boardgame when i was younger, that had ospreys as a available "pet" they were one of the highest ranked; wolves were the highest (of course). back when i was completely involved with anything non-human, ospreys always held my attention, partly because of their unique status. beautiful birds. my interest way back when stemmed from a print made by james audubon (spl?), he made a lot of beautiful works of birds. i was a member of the audubon society for awhile too, merely for this reason.

the freedom of flight has always interested me.

im always interesting, would any dream i have be anything else? i mean -fuck- if it comes out of my head, its gotta be fucked.

-t
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On October 17th, 2005 07:20 am (UTC), martyrized commented:
hey. where the fuck have you landed now?
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On October 25th, 2005 12:08 am (UTC), revtrae replied:
blah, didnt see another response.

im back in DC, have been for a few months.
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On October 25th, 2005 01:27 am (UTC), martyrized replied:
well that's just peachy. I'm out in winchester now. hurr.
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On October 26th, 2005 02:07 am (UTC), revtrae replied:
how is it out in the stix? i actually moved into the city this time, instead of that suburban crap, and i rarely get out of DC now. i didnt even bother buying a car. lemme know if your coming into town at any point, im curious to see what youve done with yourself after all these years.

and anyways, what did you expect? DC is a lot closer then NYC, which is where im looking at next, if i dont leave the country.
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On October 26th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC), martyrized replied:
it's the stix. but at least there's a larp out here i can regularly attend, and that makes it more tolerable. :)
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